I would've loved to have given you a story about the trip or an other post but the past 2 weeks have been crazy busy and I didn't have time to have a trip or any idea of a story
In the meantime, I leave you with one of my favorite songs right now, I hope you like it!

♥

Selly

 

 

  

Buat pertama kalinya aku dateng ke pulau tidung,, pulau tidung adalah salah satu pulau di kepulauan seribu, sebenernya ada dua pulau "tidung", tidung kecil & tidung besar, yang disambungin sama satu jembatan panjang yang namanya jembatan cinta...

Waktu aku dateng kesana kebeneran cuacanya lagi bagus banget, awannya lagi biru dan sinar mataharinya lagi panas banget (⌣_⌣”). Alhasil, walaupun cuma 2 hari disana,, kulit gosong abis... Ga nyesel deh dateng kesana, yang bikin aku nyesel, kenapa cuma 2 hari doang disananya?? kenapa ga lebih lama?? *ask to my own self..* waktu itu baru pengalaman pertama, jadi masih belum tau gimana serunya pulau tidung.. In next time to go to tidung island,, i will take more time to stay there... 

I Love that Place so Much...

"Best reference for the holiday"

 

Love this song so much..

to tell what i can`t tell,, how deeply this feeling 

Waiting for your call I'm sick, call I'm angry, call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing, In the car, do you remember?
Butterfly, Early Summer, It's playing on repeat, 

Just like when we would meet, Like when we would meet..

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight...

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have..

Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right. Took your soul out into the night. It may be over but it won't stop there, I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul. You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that I knew when, My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand. Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover. Goodbye my friend. You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake, You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me, Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile. I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the mother of your child. I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine. We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you, I swear that's true.I cannot live without you.

And I still hold your hand in mine. In mine when I'm asleep.

And I will bare my soul in time, When I'm kneeling at your feet.

I'm so hollow.

I am an ordinary girl,, who try to lives my life in spirit when i am up or when i am down.. storms of life have forced me to learn and make a peace with the destiny. 

 

It's one of the hardest part in my life, the most soul shaking part, it`s like a real in a dream world or it`s a dream in a real world??

oh my God... it`s a real in a real world...

suffocating heart, it never crossed in my mind before, you could throw me away after all i`ve been done for you, after all my sacrifice, after my struggling to hold everything i sweep up for you

for you, for you, for you... everything is about you...

sometime i wonder, who you really are?? my man? or my boy?

it`s trully confusing,, till i didn`t know what should i do.. I am helpless..

God never sleep, even though i don`t have all the answer of my problems, but God haves. 

God never give up hope when it seems there is no way. Believe, God makes a way.

 

now I'm struggling to stand up my life you`ve been messy, not only my heart, my soul, but physically you`ve been damage..

 

i wrote this with hatefull,, even though i know deep in side my heart i still love you...

i already love you with the deepest feeling of my heart, whatever you do, you never replace by anybody. even there will be added by someone new, never be in your place, your place in my heart is still yours never replace..

Goodbye my Lover,, you have been the one for me...

i love you,, as always...

Tuhaaaann...
Kau yang paling mengetahui isi hati'ku, seluruh kebingungan'ku, semua perasaan'ku...

semua kejadian ini memang tidak pernah terlintas sedikitpun dalam benak'ku, aku terlalu sombong, aku terlalu angkuh, aku melangkah terlalu jauh dari Mu sehingga Engkau menegur aku...

Tuhaaaann...
tidak ada tempat lain untuk'ku meminta, dan aku yakin Engkau akan memberi semua yang terbaik untuk'ku...

jika kali ini,, dan untuk kesekian kali'nya aku meminta.. aku meminta seorang pasangan hidup yang tidak untuk saling menyakiti...

Tuhaaaann...
aku sangat menyayangiMu, maka aku meminta seorang pasangan hidup yang bisa menjadi imam'ku dalam beribadah kepadaMU...

aku sangat menyayangi keluarga'ku, maka aku meminta seorang pasangan hidup yang tidak mempermalukan keluarga dan bisa menjaga kehormatan keluarga...

aku sangat menyayangi kedua orangtua'ku, maka aku meminta seorang pasangan hidup yang bisa berbakti kepada kedua orangtua kami...

Tuhaaaann...
kuatkan aku untuk setiap masa rapuh dalam hidup'ku
pegang erat tanganku untuk setiap masa kuat dalam hidup'ku
bantu aku melewati semua kesusahan dan kemudahan dalam hidup'ku

Tuhaaaann...
dalam kerapuhan'ku saat ini,, aku yakin Engkau tidak akan membiarkan semuanya menjadi lebih sulit,, aku yakin Engkau sang Maha Adil,, aku yakin akan pengadilanMu yang Maha Tinggi...

*Nothing can bring me down, cuz i have "الله" on my side,, i`ll be stronger in every breath i take..*

bingung banget milih baju buat dateng ke acara-acara resmi,, contoh..: "Acara Hajatan".. Bosen banget pake kebaya, apalagi kalo acaranya malem.. pengen pake "Night Dress" tapi kita pke jilbab,, (ga mungkin juga harus buka jilbab kan??!!)*pikiran setan, hehehehe...

aku nyoba begini...

long dress ungu, motif abstrak,  karena badan aku kurus, jadi kliatannya bagus biar keliatan agak gendut.. hehehe iya ga sih??

tuh kaannn,, keliatan lebih gendutan... =))

bagian atas modelnya kaya kemben,  cuma ada variasi kaya kalung yang ngelingkar ke leher (kalo cuma dipake dressnya aja tanpa daleman *khusus buat yang ga berjilbab, dressnya keliatan seksi, glamour, tapi sederhana)

aku tambahin aksesoris bros batu etnik hitam,, besar brosnya sih cukup tapi kurang bling-bling, jadi ga begitu keliatan... hihihi... aku ga suka model-model kerudung yang agak-agak di variasiin, jadi aku lebih milih yang simpel aja, biar keliatan tetap sederhana.. =)

so.... what do you think..??